Thursday, November 17, 2016

Joy

Joy.
Happiness.
Contentment.

I have felt all these and am continuing to feel it in my heart, mind and soul. Of course, there are times, days, weeks, months and years in a row I haven’t even had the whiff of these,
But so very very very delighted that my true awareness recognizes this in every walk of this shiny life.
It is my best effort to come up with a list, as far as my consciousness can remember – the most joyous, blissful moments so far.
This is just a tip of an ice berg, the rest will just follow like that savvy sway of an enchanting spring

With no particular order of any time-frame/intensity/volume/length-breadth/chronology, here it is

1.       That morning sunshine, shining right into my little brown eyes as I opened the doors to the dawn – The Himalayas
The sacredness at its peak: @Dharamkot, Himachal Pradesh, Spring of 2015
-       Realization of my childhood dream to become one to feel the #oneness: single entity in that space. I am so grateful of everything and everyone who lead me to it.
-       To have experienced what I have and will, is hard-earned and worth every single second of my wait-time.
-       It is a constant call and I know like I know like I know what is that call for J

2.       24 minutes in the twilight zone: Spring of 2016, San Diego
-       I watch the movies and life can be one of the most beautiful movies we’ve watched, only if we want it to be.
-       Truly and wholly, the most auspicious and dreamy 24m of my life – Birds chirping, plentiful sunshine around, shade of an humble tree, music.
-       I was exalted, over-blown, yet felt as modest I could ever be and as coy as I always am.
-       Was splendidly spirited, drove my new car on the left-most lane for the first time in the country of USA
(Sure, was a BIG Deal for me, then! Well, now, that is the only lane I drive in :))

3.       Dil Toh pagal Hai – Movie narration to my bestest friend, Arshu : Back home, Diwali 1997
-       It was an enumeration from the fairy-tale world from inside to the outside, or should I say vice-versa? ;)
-       We could talk about it all day, all night scene after the scene, dialogue after the dialogue from the beginning to the end, then repeat, and go on for days
-       Shahrukh Khan, my all-time favorite, Bollywood actor.. err.. a phenomena (Yea, he truly was and is!) was a gateway into the romantic life as we transitioned into our adolescence.
-       Butterflies in the stomach fluttering all the way to the clear blue skies with the sight of any Tom, Dick and Harry combined with raging hormones – wow! It was the perfect beginning,
and then that all we needed to get excited about, of course a million new-old developments later build on top :)
-       Just a look, just a word, just a smile from him- we slip into our day dreams, dreams all night, fantasies, we made stories around it, building castles in the air, from 6th Grade through 12th, thru …
And that would never end. What are we without our dreams? Just a blob of flesh configured to work like machines to merely exist in this world? No freaking way! We are what we think and what we dream.

4.       Gokarna Beach – Summer of 2007
-       Being close to nature in a certain way enhances the inwardness, almost euphoric like you just can’t get enough of it. Much like , how much is enough ??
-       Gokarna- In southern part of India, is secluded from the much hype of the coastal line, these beaches are lined up in solitary – Om beach -> Kudlu Beach -> Half Moon beach -> Paradise beach,
Wow, to participate in the beauty of nature and love w. stars, sea, sand, breeze, waves, people, was like a hallucination!
-       Incredible India with its ever-changing cultural diversity, feel so blessed to be born and brought up in her lap

5.       Krishna – Fall of 1995ish
-       Janmastami- his birthday at home with Supreme God, a friend, a guide, a lover and a lil more
-       May be unconventional, sure, different people view God/higher self/Universe/Almighty/The Lord in their unique ways, and there is absolutely no right or wrong way to it
-       I thoroughly felt so ALIVE and I always will – The actual take, take#1, retake and a million others to follow

6.    Rajasthan – Fall 2014
-       The taxi ride to Jodhpur, it was one of the most joyous car rides I have ever taken.
-       Rajasthan- The very name means “The abode of the Rajas – Land of the kings” As excited I was for this trip, alluring vibrant colors women/men wear, fancy traditional attire, the palaces, the breath-taking architecture, folk music –those instruments, songs people wearing big smiles all around living in the very moment, each city/town/village with unfolding unique stories, guides guiding thru – right there, me slipping back into the era of Rajputs, resting my head on the car window on the back seat- all this as we rode thru the dawn, in sun, rain, sunset till dusk.
-       How I imagined me living there, perhaps some lifetime :)

7.    Yoga – So many of them, hard to “date” it!
-       August Yoga, back in Bangalore with Jeevitha and Arooshi – beginning of self-discovery and the whole new awareness
-       Sejal – Blr, With whom I began the  actual  journey with
-       Andre – SD, The Love master, with his whole self, had heard about him a lot, at last made it to hillcrest after a glass of cocktail with girl pals,
I couldn’t stop smiling, the joy, the bliss, the LOVE, I hugged him while surrendering to the Universe in pigeon pose, and traced my way back. He kisses my hand and we give BIG hugs after.
-       The intentions we set, and the people I Yoga with always, always, so special, each time and in every class. Absolute oneness with the self and the moment.

8.    Stars – The first star of the nightfall : Each beautiful night
-       Again, I can’t comprehend to the most happiest I felt – ‘coz it is an ongoing process.
-       Each and every night, as I look up  to the skies,  I long to see this * the spearhead paving the gateway to infinite dreams in both wake and sleep states
-       It never gets old, but just like new love, always exciting always and forever ;)


Yay! These are just off the top of my head, many many many more
-       The 1st bite of my lifetime into a luscious litchi fruit, seeing somebody eat Indian desserts with so much avidity which actually makes me eat the person – food-porn,
-       People tantalizing with oh-so-happy words span together to tell a perfect story – word-porn
-       Feeling the little mangoes for the first time
-       Watching someone Yoga with passion and so much joy – takes me so high in every possible way
-       Clubbing with the girls with 30ml of wine in my tummy
-       Dunk into the pool, into the ocean – which I never never never thought is possible
-       Parking a truck in the middle of the night under the stars right there on the road, as we pay taxes to the government
-    Navratri - dancing for Krishna inside the temple, sheer love and happiness
-       Feeling victorious in the day, at night, anywhere and everywhere
-       Bliss followed after an amazing session of reiki, meditation, sound healing
-       Strangers complimenting out of nowhere for exactly what you are
… and a million.. I know of and millions.. and millions I am yet to know, I truly feel it and it is/will eternally live inside of my each cell.



Bliss!













































Thank you Universe.
You are beautiful.
You are Joy!

Saturday, November 5, 2016

As auspicious as it gets : Labyrinth Yoga -2

I run into this magnificent Grace Cathedral



Event has started


I am already feeling ecstatic for making it through the open doors. In the waiting area, I see Darren guiding the huge class with few 100s of people on their mats. A note “Gates will be reopened, after the meditation” I sigh out, Aaaaah! I see a bunch of late-comers, well, I am not the only one on IST in America, Aaaaah :)
 Let’s all take a deep breath in and while we breath out, chant AUM, I just sit in the waiting area on the floor and AUM in synonym, Vibrations linger on, while I am still sitting with closed eyes, gates reopen, I go find a spot, looked around to find a restroom, wondering if there are restrooms in cathedrals? If yes, where? At the entrance or the opposite corner? I couldn’t find none. Yoga started – Started with Child’s pose. Deep breath In and Out, I had to put all my energy on breath and not to focus on my bladder :)  I did good.

I smile all throughout the class, Asanas – 1 after the other, Darren has such a deep voice, which instantly grounds you and makes you connected to the moment.
Yet another beautiful  theme – “Learning to Dance with the Limp” he goes on quotes Anne Lamot

You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.

He said keep somebody in your thoughts, remember them, people who have crossed-over, people who are with us, near or far off. I did, I absolutely did,
It was as if we were Yoga’ing together in bliss. I couldn’t stop smiling, there is this band playing live music, Darren walks around the whole (yoga) matted area, many volunteer teachers moving around while they help students dive a little more, inside the auspicious temple. So many warrior ones, I love all warriors, Warrior 1 is not deemed as one of the best poses, at this place where I practice every day, But I enjoy the pose, the more uncomfortable I feel, the better I get at it, the next time. Then extended side angle, I tick-tock my arms to a 12 and 6 position, my gaze shoots beyond the tips of my fingers, upon the ceiling, to the mighty architecture, dim lights, the light beaming right into my eyes and further. Gentle flow, it is all levels yoga, so doesn’t matter if you are a 1st time practitioner, or an advanced teacher, everyone gets a piece of the pie, and feels just right. Then Camel Pose, again the highest no. of times I have done this in a single class- 3 repetitions, it is a deep bend and heart opener, I love it, sometimes brings out the strong feelings on to the surface.

Bliss.
Peace.
Joy.
Curiosity.
Divinity and more than all, the
Sense of belonging.

I am so #in, all in. Now in savasana, Darren says, “Ancient India brought Yoga to us, and this pose means the corpse pose, we need to practice it, and can be most challenging,
There will be one last time we do this with perfection” I chuckle lying as a sava (corpse), some others do. He is soft spoken, can feel the compassion in his very words. I wonder how it is to guide this amazing class, week after week, where a few 100s make their way to experience this historic event – all by donation. Wow!! World is such a beautiful place to live in. We are guided out of savasana, Aums, Namaste, announced some upcoming events and people disperse. I sit and smile a little bit more. Get around to fill my naked eyes with the exuberance, snap a couple of pictures and on the way out 20$ bill: 10$ for me and 10$ for this incredible person who led me to it.

A deep breath in
kiss the note
wish a wish
Breath out

-       “May the Yoga Bliss be spread all around the world and beyond” 

Drop it in the donation box and run to the find a restroom :)    






PS: Yes! Cathedrals do have restrooms, ooh, Thank God for that.

PSS: I booked the cab, yet another amazing cabbie -  Timothy, had a great conversation.
It was hard for him to believe somebody comes to the city just to do Yoga :)
Life is at its best when you seek your passion!!
He drops me off to my car with “You drive safe girl” and I did drive back to reach San Jose, where I live!

PSSS: Did I lose someone, I cannot live without? Did my lovely heart break?
NO F Way. I am so in love and my lovely heart is so open to receive all the abundance Universe is giving me ♥

As auspicious as it gets : Labyrinth Yoga -1

It is a little after noon, 12ish fiddling around with thoughts a few conscious ones, rest sub-conscious, browsing anything and everything to fill me up,
While awaiting some news about work- brilliant idea strikes. It is the same thought with which I had jumped out of the bed in the morning – “Want to feel ALIVE, instead of just existing” I check a specific email from this very specific person, to get the details – Go through the website and bam, it is Tuesday! Yes! It is a weekly yoga event happens from 6.15-7.30 PM, I have been told and heard volumes about this class.  

"Oh-So-Perfect" - I tell myself, Thank the Universe, and plan (well, I am learning!) I have to leave early It is a drive 1.15 hr w/o traffic and w traffic would double the time and more.              
Big City- San Francisco, have only been there once with a friend driving me to the airport to pick somebody up. Now it is in-front of me to go and explore. Wow, so excited.
Yet, some hesitation, should I? could I? may be later? May be w some company while I drive into the unknown. 

Coming from a society where we are thoroughly pampered every possible way, elders/friends/family are so protective of their girls that we have always been driven around, picked up dropped off, they wait on us even it runs hours at times, well we have always been so taken-care of. It is great, but experiencing the opposite of us is what I have thrived for, and I am still. It is a process. Hence I was amidst my heart and mind again. I have a trick – to get out of this, when I know like I know like I do, then I surely go for it, but when I don’t, I simply toss a coin. I learn it in my childhood, may sound silly to many but I just love it, it is a quicker solution which stuck with something. I did, and it is tails
                       
I take my salad, wear a BIG FAT smile and I jam. I drive with the instructions of GPS, to this music filling all my senses thru Spotify – Life has been so fantastic from the time I invited this car into my life. It started me off on a journey I’ve always wanted to be on – Freedom :) Independence like I knew of it never before, but wanted it all throughout. It is so great. The plan was to drive to this Yoga place in Fremont, I am a member of, at 3 PM, Then get fresh to get out at 4.30 PM,  just walk as the event was just 1.2 miles from Yoga place. Avoiding the need to drive at the peak hour and moreover parking. I left my office in Santa Clara at 1.43 PM, but didn’t realize I would be so stuck just as I entered SFO. I made it to Yoga place 3.02 PM, but parking? God, it looked like a downtown area, I drove around, got honked at, like 8 times then found a spot, yay! Ate some more salad, took my mat, bottle and walked to the yoga place.

It was 3.30ish, thanks to all the buffer time I had, I know me well :) Amazing class by Melissa, began at 4 PM, advanced but focus was so much on breath, letting the breath guide you to the asana, felt so incredible as I Namaste’d, in the end. I change from yoga clothes to another, get fresh and head towards my car, 5 min walk, and booked a cab. TRAFFIC, reminded me of my hometown – Bangalore, it has been a while since I saw something like that. Cab driver couldn’t get me, so after waiting for 15m, canceled. Booked another one, time is ticking, absolutely no time to walk, it would take 22m, accordingly to Google maps for me to reach by walk. I had to reach there at least by 5.45  PM, and it was 5.45 PM :) I call this new cab driver, guide him, or misguide him, w my great sense of direction, he finally gets me, I thank him, for driving like crazy only w his heightened positive attitude I could reach – He said I WILL reach and I SO WANTED TO (“ … And when you really want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it”, I love this, use it in my signature, I love Paulo Cuelho, I love The Alchemist) At 6.16PM, I give Abdul, the cabbie the biggest hug and run with my(ur) mat.




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