Saturday, February 21, 2009

Lost lost & lost......

Damn, they say everything and anything has some limit.. But with me, losing things I see absolute no boundaries!!
Lost my 3rd cell phone on Feb15th- Here in B***** Bangalore!! Am sure this happened just to ruin my previous day and ofcourse.. it is still in progress. Am not able to sleep peacefully for so many more reasons, now this is bigtime adding on.I hate it when I lose something which is emotionally attached to ya heart. It is not about freakin money, can earn in a day or 2..a week or 2 but all those i had collected and stored it from past 2 years. wall papers, pics, images, messages, fav texts from a few 'SPECIAL' ppl all gone in less than 60 sec :( :( :(

My very 1st mobile- In my 1st office a few years ago, then in a rickshaw, again in a rick. How I wish I can get back that moment, because it was all about presence of mind- just that exact MOMENT!! Expecting my mobile back from the person who got it is like wishing pak HELPING India in 1 single way atleast!! It is an awkward situation in my ownself unexpalinable, or to jot it down here. To add on I recollect losing my calligraphy copy I had created all my hols after 12th at home, everybody were busy going for math-science classes and it was me who practiced calligraphy I lost it- Never found it. My fav shirt and few tops - cant figure out where these got hasseled out during shifting places, cities.Lost, never found it, all my mobile phones- all lost never found any, not even a slightest trace of it!Ofcourse many many more tiny/huge things not in my head as of now.

Viewing the flip side, I was fortunate enough to be with ppl who comforted me and got something better, feel obliged and gald too :) Thank GOD for that!! God aint that mean, though I often target him for all misfortunes... As when something bad happens, it is raining bad.. worse.. worst things on me, "MISFORTUNE seldom comes alone" huh?
I promise myself that I wont lose 'ANYTHING' anymore not in my Conscious mind, not unconsciously.. I shall win over this weakness and all others.. sooner no later Shall grow up to be a better person, a responsible 'LADY', for now am no more a baby(sad but true)I love me more than I ever loved anybody, I cant let myself go down :) Am the Best ;)

Just think how happy you would be if you get everything you lost from the time you realized it is yours..right now in a wink of an eye- I shall be no where but right on top of the world :)

Monday, February 9, 2009

~~~M@@D $W!NG$~~~




God knows, why does something like a 'MOOD' exist, like it was not just enough, to add on to the misery it 'SWING's too. Grrrrr Grrrrrrrrrr

Ya on a serious note, at times when am just there feeling on top of the world, may it be coz of shopping in Benetton, goodies from ma sis from the continent on the other side, may it be the most happening party with ma galy gang..or good Italian at El Fungo Magico..there the very next moment am thrown to a very dark, creepy, abyssal thoughts awakening some nasty unworth feelings from inside like tearing me apart into pieces un-countable :( Then I know I dont wanna be in my skin anymore, feels so dejected, neverthless to mention depressed. And I dont know why.. how.. who.. what!! Not a slightest clue.. either.. :(


“The heart loves, but moods have no loyalty. Moods should be heard but never danced to”- Who so ever said it, I cant agree better.What it is supposed to be "what it is".. Why does it only fakes it to be "what it is?" Past is past future would be future, dont understand why present gets screwed coz of past experiences and futurely perceptions. I always wanted to come back to Bengaluru from Pune, now that I am here, who cribbing day and night, yea feeling nostalgia :( SAD thing it is!! I browses a bit and found Owens Lee Pomeroy's quote

"Nostalgia is like a grammar lesson: you find the present tense, but the past perfect!" Gosh, I wonder how nostalgic he must have been to quote this so perfectly, he can be termed as the Father of nostalgia. Unfortunately am one of his beloved followers :(

I cant stop comparing Bang-Pune!! Each and every single glimpse that passes by has two flashes in ma head
1>Bang
2>Pune
I go there(Pune) I feel nice, great really amazing like never before but am aware of the fact that I DONT belong to that place anymore(Possibility- May be that is why I feel THAT great). Hmmm, mood swings from 1 end to the other farthest end leaving me so restless. I just wanna stop all this and start living- for what I am, not for what I was, or for what I am gonna be.
Conquering 1's own mood and keeping it IN CONTROL is 1 of the best acheivements I feel, coz it is atrociously difficult task!! Try it

Namaste, Friends.

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