Happy Happy Birthday..

"Why are birthdays so over -rated? I mean.. what is so special about a birthday, comes every year.. it is just another day, boring ..has 24 hrs.. same routine.. sun rise, to sun set.. now what?"

I wanna whack their ass who thinks like .. that...!!

Birthdays are special.. yes they are sooooooooooooo special, though 100 thousand others have taken birth all round the world, it is still YOUR birthday!! Gotta be special.. we have another 364 1/4 days to be spent with ya normal rountine of life.. machine-like..monotonous life.. but.. D day is something!!

I never like to spend time in the place 1 stays, have to take a holiday, go out partyyyyyyyyy crazy get tipsy with ya loved ones.. friends.. gals.. boys or with 'THE'ONE..who so ever.. ;) May be I have this strong feeling coz of festive spirit of christmas,getting holiday on x-mas eve is no tough job.. so I have always had this ma head!! may be it a beach.. a beautiful get away.. resort.. or a happening partyyy in a BIIIG city..go freak on :)

"Birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time" - Paul Ritcher

Day is filled with- loadsa prayers.. loadsa wishes.. sweets..candles.. candies.. chocs, cakes..goes with out saying!! No matter how, where it is, the sole purpose is not to let the spirits down, whole year, what is accomplished vs wha is gonna accomplishable is a huge thingy going on inside of the small head we pocess!! Phew, amidst all the calls for friends.. cousins.. faaar off ppl whom u havent met.. scrapping, leaving offlines, hope there wont be any time to remorse, as I said before, all other days are there for that.

I feel like I jus passed 13yrs, Picasso quoted "It takes a long time to grow young" I believe it didnt take at all for me.. lolla.Now is time to realize the wisdom gained(really..:D) weighing highs and lows(loadsaaaaa)..judging good bad decisions taken.. making a small pavilion for whole year which is right ahead of you.. GOD BLESS :)

"Your birthday is a special time to celebrate the gift of 'you' to the world"

Happy budday to me..... :D

How swift have flown

To me thy girlish times,

A woman grown beneath

My heedless eyes!

In vain I rack My fancy to believe

The almanac,

That speaks thee twentyish - Anon

Vulnerable.. just aint the word!!

Dont know why..sometimes.. or most of the times I have this feeling of being so vulnerable!! By vulnerable.. I dont really mean weak.. or less energetic.. not even the dictionary meaning..which says "susceptible to being wounded.. " but vulnerable a million ways :(

Or may be it is almost same as "capable or being hurt.." yes, it a very sad feeling. At a moment you are so exclaimed.. that you feel on top of the world.. the happiest person ever, all the care.. love.. wanting.. happiness.. indeed ecstasy is alomost 'U'!!! But even before that very moment spilts.. U get to realize that this is not FOREVER.. nothing exists which is eternal.. no ETERNAL BLISS!!

Why is it like a compulsion.. as u go to school.. give exams..coll.. exams..why is it that in life so many things ought to happen? I was perfectly fine.. if more than 1000 things.. didnt happen in my life.. or may be in 1000 different ways if it happened.. but it is a viscious cycle.. what goes round comes around. No escapes.. no gain..no mercy!! every day is harder to realize and live on..of what happened.. but even harder to imagine what is gonna happen. all 1 gotta do is.. just live the monent.. like the moment.. no matter how bad or how tasty is gets.. itz afterall a MOMENT!!

Cant get away too far from vulnerability.. cant get away too far from anxiety.. coz all are jus around u.. around all others.. like in the air.. like in the water..life should go on..may be not living.. just surviving!!O God.. save this barbarism.. for notime.. coz we all were said this life is beautiful.. and indeed desperate to see PEACE at heart and soul!! need to see happiness which never vanishes.. which can fade but doesnt disappear in a wink of an eye..

Just hoping with christmas round the corner, hearts would be less vulnerable..and may it be filled with joy, hope.. loadsaaaa love :)

God is closest to those with BrOkEn hE@rT$..

"Trust only movement. Life happens at the level of events, not of words. Trust movement"- said Alfred Adler. But how is this possible in this real, hard prejudice world? We can no more live in any imaginary, dreamy life where illusion was counted more than the facts, reality ceased to exist- hmmm couldn't cant happen anymore. This seems to be outdated with time, like in fashion; In today's nanosec universe, inner voices/senses have become absolete, trashed, binned wastage!!!!

Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers- and today i know am a lonely stranger, wandering from place to place in search of something beyond everything!!! No homo-sapien is worth the TRUST.. TEARS..i have a life to catch.. and gotta get going.Broken hearts/whined souls have become so common like parthenium speard across and occupied all possible land.

I wonder at times, why is it called 'HEART-ACHE' when every single part seems to be broken too? why is the world turning to a place intolerable to live-in? People are not anymore what they look-like, there is a beast inside every man.. MAY be a woman too. Its like people change and they forget to tell each other...I feel, how would it be to lead a simpler life, a real decent one with no flashy shocks/surprises passing your way? That would be a beauty.. worth watching.. worth living :)

"Every life is a march from innocence, through temptation, to virtue or vice" - mostly VICE huh? But what can YOU do about this? U can see it.. feel it.. but cant help it.. gotta LET-GO with a simple curse across ya lips!! Now that's what i call the perfect IRONY!!! damn...!!! I wish to go back to the 'MY-world' where sipler things were happier, excitement ran in tons.. ppl knew wha LOVE shd be like..they knew how to treat others, respect, trust, care and this world was where we were made to LIVE.. nicer..merrier.. indeed at itz best!!!

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

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With L@vE... 'MY' AFtek

I never imagined in my wildest thoughts.. that leaving AFTEK would be so hard, Phew!! Everysingle thing under this blue sky as its sunny side, and ofcourse the dark side. What ever you term it has- emotions, sentiments, attachment I ve went thru all the day i left this company. Miss my team, miss the work, miss that enviorment, miss those snacks.. and everything.. good bad.. worse, all kinds and all times. Here is what I had to say----------
"Hi Guys,

Yes, yet another “GOODBYE” mail hitting your inbox; I would try to keep it shorter, though it’s quite a challenge.

wondering, how fortunate I am, for saying BYE, is so hard for me, and sure is a necessary.The tenure in Aftek has been my journey from DHG to Broadcom, it was a realm of good, not-so good moments.. But are relished thoroughly.Seems like coming from home, Bangalore to Pune took me a long way – and made remarkable milestones in my career, inter-personal ladder measured within. Broadcom, is been more than just a ‘project’ to me- here is where I went through most of the heights and depths, never thought of, makes an amazing story filled with gossips, shocks, laughs twists and turns. SVT- ‘MY TEAM’- completely rocks, makes major part of my reminiscence, which I would carry even backhome or where ever I destine. Love and cheers to all you guys, and how can I forget to thank DHG- for teaching me MARATHI?

There is a hope to meet shortly again, and make our absence sweet, After all they say each person is separated by bare 6 Degrees,Drop in a mail anytime- prada.eternal@gmail.com, and as of now, my no. would be- 9881065668.

Am looking forward for our path to cross sometime and Leaving with the note, trying to figure out…Where is the ‘good’ in goodbye?
Cheers,
Vasu"
And the rest.. Beyond words could speak :)

Agony... pain.. hurt..

Like we breath.. like we have food.. water.. like we walk and talk, AGONY becomes a part of life. It gets imbibed in dialy routine, with or with out our knowledge, it is lwayz walkin along sometimes shadowed by other materialistic things, but the truth is how far and how long can we escape/hide/ignore it? Na, not for long.
So many things hurt- situations,words, ppl, actions, reactions, breakups, love, friendship, relationship, truth,lies,expectations,hopes, wishes,trust, distrust,decisions,death, birth... You name it!!! Agony could be personified or can come as part of time, which is usually tagged as "BAD TIME", no matter what it is almost always there. We try to mask it in million ways, but it unmasks itselfs in million and 1 ways, damn thing!!! Ultimately i wonder, is there no remedy atall? i mean, you accept it , acknowledge it, solve it but in course of time again, its come right there in front of you,but in some other form. Am had hopes, so many thinking 1 fine day, i would put an end to all this SAD crap, no wayz, only to realize it keeps coming back to you more stronger and more refined. DAMN THING!!!

Expectations hurt, hurt so much, in all dimensions possible- like say i have exceptations in other person, not fulfilled, that hurts bad, 2nd -people have expectations in me, not met, they are hurt, finally it hurts me, cause they are my loved ones. At times am too cautious even to raise few guts on this point, bending on somebody, trusting somebody to have anticipations further. But this world is way too tempting not to go for instant joys, after all life is not all that long that you can go back and repair/fix, on the contrary we can get the best lesson outta it and go ahead further with the spirit not to redo the same mistake :)

So, now i know, it takes incredible intelligence to cloud off the pain, better you can do it, more is the wordly happiness you come across.About the REAL REAL happiness, am not sure, may be not even in the position to comment, hope there will be a day where i will assimilate this truth too.. still the questions remains.. WHY? why is there so much pain in the, heart of hearts, soul of souls, deep rooted inside the layers of the skin.. tears roll down in immense, hearts become heavy, minds get spammed with unnecessary S#%#, GOD knows WHY....

Choices...

Have had this feeling "the choices u make in life decides YOUR destiny" but one of my greatest friends think "Choices one make in life doesn’t decide the destiny but makes one walk closer with the destiny which is already written" As much as i respect my friend, contradicting it is!!!
Anyways, how can i expect thoughts of 2 different individuals to be similar? Yet, there are like millions of people who belong to different worlds and manage getting tuned… rather say get together by hook or crook!! I mean its strange and so weird at times when you take a closer look at the things happening with your own self, as it is with me at the moment. I always wanted to 'GO WITH THE FLOW’ of life, now i feel am absolutely there going with the flow, but only to realize, I have lost the control over my own actions, decisions, thoughts, deeds!! Absolutely!!!
Is this what we call 'go with the flow' if yes, then I would have rather chosen to take life in a balanced manner, my way, I show the way, i pave the path how to flow where to flow, how to flow :) as i remember a saying by an intellectual dude, "Life is 10% how it comes and 90% how you take" see it all depends on YOU!!!
Snatch the time, make it all YOURS, take things where you want,create ur own destinies.. design ur goals.. garnish with immense happiness.. smile laugh and you have a LIFE you alwayz dreamt off.. on TOP of the world :)