Thursday, December 6, 2007

Compromises..


How many times you come across this word ?10..100..1000..10000...1000000.. Countless?? yea, have no choice, have to compromise!!!Damnnnn!!

There was 1 stage of ma life, when i disliked.. rather say hated the very word..then i had determined, for NOTHING in this world would i ever COMPROMISE.. yah, i call it adolescence!! Now that i am a grown up gal.. BIG gal.. way too grew up in few months!!
learned many.. Unlearned too many things all along. few for good, few for bad, few for the worst.

How i wish, i ever stayed that way, how i wish, i'd ve never come to this stage, why do we GROW-UP?? just to learn and accept compromises are better than fighting for the ones you want!! when young, may be mommy.. daddy, laterzz a lot matured boy.. Boyfriend.. Holds your hand and makes sure we are taking the right steps.. time goes by, years pass by, knowledge creeps in, we realize, that there is NO need for any hand which is holding you, so start walking alone.. it feels great, rejoicing all the freedom and fun frolic along the walk. Now after a while, come across different people, more interesting than the ones you already know, may be a change, change we would appreciate coz, its been quite sometime and tend going by it, changing the directions which has no destiny.

Now, all the past becomes history, all you are concerned is the present life, fantasized future.. New future.. New aims.. New goals.. and at last sort a 'BRAND new destiny!!' here its not a walk on the rose bed, so decide to take easier steps with out altering the 'BRAND new destiny' so, obviously, consciously, sub-consciously, tend to compromise!!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Heights of configurability...




Does it really??Sometimes i wonder,why should things happen in a CERTAIN way only. As if the whole world is pre-configured,things are decided,wel in advance.. even before we take birth.we just go with it,and have no choice!!!why i mean why so?

Take birth,get named,school,college,exams,career..marriage..children..sh*t and crap!why everything revolves in and around these?Why cant we break free.. and set our own destinations..make our own paths.. lead our own lives!! DAMNit!!why are there so many chains around? Family.. society.. money..all these suppose not to rule over us, they are intended to comfort us.. but have taken the charge like dirty monsters.

where is the "freedom of thought".. "freedom of action" gone?? gone with the time?? or with the wind??we are bound to do/perform few things.. and we just carry on with those all thru out ouir lives.. sucks isn't it?? Lets try and figure out 1..just 1 person who says he is HAPPY,content all the ways,that proves there's atleast 1 human being who is not depressed,sunk in the depths of sadness,who is not frustrated with self,who is not faking so called happiness around!! huh!! nope.. nobody around!!.. hence i say,IT sucks BIGTIME!!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Life neva stops untill...




yea, u can be sad, u can be wane.. happy.. u might get tired, fall sick.. u may keep ur spirits high, u may have the deadlist mood swings.. u may fall in love.. might as well fall outta love..no matter what, life still goes on! I mean people say cant live wid out another.. can claim that ANOTHER person is more than life.. yet the reality lies the same.. Life still goes on.. wid a difference.. yea, may be an uncomparable difference!!If we,manage gettin a sqaure meal, thatz more than enough to live.. yes comforts,luxuries..lined up in the queue. People fall sick,recover.. they fall outta place, i mean their favourite place to a complete stranger's land, seems impossssssssssssssible to lead even a single day.. clock ticks its way(...Thank GOD for its unaltered power!) Sun rises, sets..it shines.. and one fine day,in a flash its as if we have been there all life! phew!Amazin isn't it??? yet, compromises prevail/rule over dreams...!! Sad but true.. passions/fantasies just manage getting getting a sneak peak..else forever rest in peace.. in the BACK seat of life'z race!!!!!!!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Yes, Good Guyz DO EXIST! Phew..!!


Ripley's believe it or not!!

yea, atlast am gonna change ma view to an extent atleast.i explored something which contradicted ma own true beliefs.. guess wha??? The 'Good-Guy' specimen aint extinct yet! Am happy to re-declare that "THIS" species still exist very much on our Planet.. breathing the same air(polluted...air.. of course.hehe), drinkin the same water,survive having the same edible food.. unbelievable isn't it??

Arite, wha am gonna say applies to those so called "single-to-mingle" kinda BOYS.. and nah to mention,this has nothin to do wid "dedicated-boyfriend"material types.as they are alwayz Sweet-heartz (hey u Guyz Hip-Hop..err.. ROCK all-time..:))

Strange but true, every DAM* guy wanns to take advantage of a Gal.. and it absolutely doesn't matta if the Gal is Single/under-aged/commited/engaged/married, oh boy!If the Gal too is 'OKAY'(yea, rite!)wid going ahead wid things then, no bothers anyayz.. else, WHY..WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY...???Whaz all the fun in troubling her? aarrgghhh.. 'YOU' guyz suck.. and BIGTIME!!


'Friend' according to me is jus a 'Friend' and we DONOT have no more feelings above this! Gals are happy the way they are.. they are happy for wha they are.. few of them are single 'coz they chose for it and NOBODY wanns/expects FAVOURS from 'Friends.....!!!!'Few are extremely happy wid their guyz,sweet heartz.. :) n 'WE'(yesssssss.. there i am.. belong to this category) dont need any DAM* guy, coz we see eternity in the LOVE, in the sharing and REALIZE guyz, we are in LOVE.. not just a crush/infactuation/adore. ultimately, we are happy for we are GALS :) yo!!Also we exactly know where we are heading in this matter. So keep ya INTETIONS to urself!! Huh!!!


Far away from home..amidst a world of strangers.. have a purpose to serve and life of OUR own. Flirting,flings..fooling-around.. are passe,we have a Career to catch! So Guys Beware ;)

Saturday, June 16, 2007

All LoSt.. LoSt in the world of ..!!!


Yesssss absolutely!!! I wonder at wha stage in life am standing... Feel so Bl**dy LoSt.
Aint happy with the work anymore (...who will after such a depressing appraisal,even after getting my grades-right....!!!??!!) Also, i know.. very well know, itz not the field i wanted to work on.. this Domain is not my cuppa-tea! Am sure, Management is what i am made for, thatz exactly where i see myself fitting into..(..atlast i know! Thankz heavens for this!) At this stage,will i be able to stop earning?????(almost impossible..)Should i continue working(..????) here..or should i really start looking out in My-Bangalore.. or should i indeed go ahead wid the itch which has gotten into my head off-late???
It wasn't 1 of my million-burning desires though.. yet, i see myself proceeding Management way..(Business) coz, i believe so. Ummmmm..beliefs,decisions,dreamz,hopes,aims,goals.. are on 1side, yet only "MONEY" factor on the other. Yet in many cases, the former ones all together cant raise upto the latter .. there losing the whole BALANCE..balance of WHOLE life!! thatz how ppl learn to live wid compromises(... bet, the word which has visited all living-entities of the universe in different proportions)
So, yessssss now, i ll connect myself wid the words i just said

My Belief : Am made for 'Management'
My Goal : Doing MBA in Business
My Aim : To give my GMAT, and Do MBA in US..FDU New Gersy
My Hope : To get a student-Loan from a bank for my studies in FDU
My Dream: To work as a business-Analyst in a BIGGGGGGGG company ASAP

ahhaha.. everthing so clear..crisp just like a crystal in a lighted room..right infront of my naked eyez, yet am not able to figure out wher i am!!! ah.. God, Life'z such a paradox! It suckz BIGTIME!!!

Change... necessary Changes!



.. to continue.. Changes!!
Ah, why cant the change happen the way we Desire??? Why is it alwayz/mostly other-way round???grrrrrrr yet few thingz neva change.. i continue comparing this place...PUNE to Namma-Bengaluru..like i alwayz did. It can only make me feel worse.. just to add to ma Feeling-not-so-good feeling,yes, it hardly took DAYZ for me to realize.. how much i miss my LAND, My people, My language,My food.. the whole 'MY', indeed, i felt i lost ma whole identity!!Amidst a completely different cultured people a gal like me, ought not to face too many problems.. yet i did(..remember.. Experience speaks VOLUMES..phew again!!)
Though a in a betta position to see thingz in here, yet i bl**dy cant stop comparin wid BANGALORE.. heaven on Earth(...the Earth i ve seen :) and am sure..it ll still remain 'the Heaven' for rest of the earth am gonna see..!) i tend to compare every lil thing..weather, ppl around, cost-factors..guyz,galz,fruits,vegetables,cosmetics,cloths,accessories,vehicles..amount of pollution.. traffic sense..parties,music,greenary around..cost of living..shoppin..food, roads,hangouts,water,languages spoken,malls,cinemas,skies,stars,mud,trees and every lil thing i see wid my opened eyes, things i feel wid my skin.. things i think of in my mind... every DAMN thing!!!!!!!!!!(..can somebody imagine.. itz the heightz!!!!)uh... have no clue how much i hate myself for this...aarrgghh....!
I realize that every place has got itz advantages/disadvantages.. yet i cant stop ^&&%R^$%#%@%^%^& and all the above said! Ah... GOD why cant this be changed?????

Me.. Me.. Me.. and Me..

Had come to this place with HIGH(.. yea, HIGH with a capital 'H') Hopes..(....yet again). Was great, absolutely amazin, new work.. new ppl..new environment..soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo far away from Home.. friends..Loved ones..Indeed far from Anybody(& everybody) i knew on this planet..(..as i Aways wished!!).Got to know thingz at work.. and outside.. like i neva knew.. that tells me, not everything could be learnt by just by hearin/seeing but oughtta Experience it...!!(Phew.. they said "Life teaches u lesson..n itz the Best Teacher".. realized..HOW true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Pg..(ah, KraZy KHi****res) was 1 of the most boring places, i ve known till now.. except for the twins-in-there.Infact, thatz the sole entity wha i miss from that place,which was beared by me sooooooo patiently(...yea rite.lol) for almost 5.. long long long long......months!(Bravo me, for still saving lil 'SANITY' inside me!) Thank God.. am outta it.. into a Flat.. all independently wid sane ppl around :) :) :) Am sure can preserve it for the rest of ma life.... :)Things change...yes, gotta change as its inevitable..yes, things change for good. Though nobody promised that all thingz change(...how i wish???)

Friday, January 26, 2007

Life is at its best when least planned..!!!


yessssssssssss...
how wonderful can this get???there is a looooooooooong weekend starting from tomo..ppl have planned..a bit, planned a lot,planned it very well..but me!! hmmm..bangalore is too far for a 5day trip..in a train..so didnt have no plans.
Being new to this place..have hardly any friends around..thought will spend most of the time sleepin..reading magazines..and played with the twins in my P.G(like..i have other option??)!!so stayed back in the office..goin thru personal mails,met 1 of my freind..a very specail one(my sweetheart..Jyoti,who was my hostel roommate in bangalore..and also a great friend for a life time:)) so called her up as its been long since v spoke(obv..caught in the realm of daily routine..aarrghhh!!)
as usual..shouting..screamin on top of the voice our conversation started..went on..this that..+_)*(&^_)(*&^+_()&*%^#$!@^_)()*& she says"heyaa..then y dont u come to my place..and it ll be like u would see Mumbai too"..then,paused a moment..said "oooooooooooooooo yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....!!!!!!!!!!!"(wondered how come this idea didnt click in my mind before???!!)anyways...thats it..i have a plan for this loooooooooooooooooooooooong weekend ahead..yooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooo cant wait anymore:)
Gonna..check out MUMBAI(...n whaz the buzz all about???) go party..get togethers..new ppl..faster pace of life,new lives..a different world to experience. My curiosity to explore and see places has reached the heights and am damn passionate abt this!!yesssssssss.. Got a chance to LIVE again..nah just leading a dialy life.At times its sooooooo important to take a Break from the normal pace,else the day wouldnt be too far where u can be driven insane..and mainly professionals workin in my field,SOFTWARE..make it a point..!!(experience talks..heheehe)
every day..is said to be lived..not jus let go like that..:)
Cheerz,Vasu

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Dreamzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz







Each 1 of us have seen dreams.. Right from the time we knew how to think till date zillions of dreams bypassed us.. Few at nights when we are fast asleep few in the broad daylight amidst a flowing crowd.. And a few when least expected!
What actually are these DREAMS? How could they be soooooooooo wonderful at times and also manage being the worst nightmare (NOTE: even the deadliest nightmare is a ‘DREAM’.. but yes the other face of it..!!!!) Is it the outcome of our wild imagination?? Or is it that our own thoughts pile up and we ourselves picturize it as a dream? Or is it the deepest cravings hidden in depths of the heart burst out?? Or is it our visionary instinct taking an active roll resulting in a dream? Or is it any damn thought which absolutely has no attention from us end up forming a dream? Or is it as our intelligent scientists’ research proves “Our dreams combine verbal, visual and emotional stimuli just a part physiological and psychological stimulations??” Or is it the fusion of conflicts/compromises initiated by our heart and mind?? Or is it as happens with the chosen ones.. A sixth sense??? Or is it weary phase of the night/day which needs no invitation, which can neither, be stopped nor rejected…yet ignored day in and day out??? [Also ever wondered if its only Human beings who have these strange dreams or.. any other form of living beings go through the same???]
(Folks got any idea..???)
No matter what it is.. Dreamzzzzzz are amazing…!!!!!!!!!!(Agreed??????? Yes got to ‘coz we have no choice!!) Its gives a sense of tranquility.. Whether am hearing the song “dream dream dream….” Or sitting in green valley thinking about my loved ones It’s healthy to dream.. or is it really??? Hmmm.. Remember those days when I woke up crying to the top of the roof.. As I had seen the worst disaster which could ever happen in my family, continued for a while, later consolidated myself.. and said”Thank God it’s just a DREAM!!!” can’t be enough glad for that scary episode being JUST A DREAM.
Yessssssssss… there are loads of times when I wished and prayed for dreams (few) to come true (..Come on.. Who haven’t???) Somebody said “the first thing you have to do to make your dream come true is wake-up” I agree.. Completely. Not all dreams are wished to be dreams; few are made to be realized in real-life, like having a BIG car, a villa, meeting great personalities, listing the top amongst world’s richest people, Europe tour, touring the world to experience different cultures.. Different food.. Life styles, space trip, to watch galaxies…...on and on and on……
Dreams are part of our lives, all arise in us and of course most of them die in us!! (Gosh is this the SALVATION dreams possess???) Alas... At times it’s even hard to recollect the dream we had the previous night. We do acknowledge Dreams in distinctive ways.. With a smile, with a tear, with a sigh, sharing it with others, making it a base for the future.. a vision, Smart people cherish it in real life, in contrast few are content for it being just a dream, and few hardly have time to realize if he/she even had a dream. See that’s what I call different lives, different people different dreams… Yet we all live we dream.. And this goes on until the very last breath!!

Namaste, Friends.

  Namaste, Friends. Thank you for showing up on your mat. My name is Vasu, I will be guiding you thru your C1 practice today. This is YOUR p...